I lost my writing rhythm sometime last fall and haven't succeeded in getting fully back into my usual flow since. Some of the reasons are positive ones, a busier schedule with church and family, the grandkids in particular. I don't regret the time missed sitting at the computer to write when it means I'm investing more in people's lives. Some of the reasons are not so positive. The current atmosphere of division and strife on social media, including misunderstandings and hurt and disappointment among writing friends that I've made since I began blogging has been difficult to work though and process. I have felt the sting of intolerance while being told I need to be more tolerant. I have wrestled with the knowledge that when I stand firmly in the pro-life camp, the women who read my words who have experienced abortion feel hurt and judged. I have been confused by the lack of logic of those who use verses from Leviticus to support their view on one current issue and then say that other verses in Leviticus against another hot button issue are inadmissible because they come from the Old Testament. I have felt overwhelmed and stretched thin from it all. And this, the safe place where I express what God is doing in me and speaking to me, where I write about the things I see, feel and think, hasn't felt like such a safe place anymore.
And yet, this is the year that I am supposed to be abiding. Abiding in the shadow and shelter of the One Who is my Refuge and Fortress. I am supposed to be abiding in His love for me and being a conduit of His love for others. I'm supposed to be abiding in peace, and yet I sense the tension in the atmosphere, the war going on for the very life of what I hold dear and true. I'm supposed to be abiding in Him, yet in my flesh I feel like I suddenly have spiritual ADD and get so easily distracted by who is saying what and what is happening now and what is going to happen and current events capture my attention more than He does all too often.
But then He reminds me of two little words, "let the". "And let the peace (soul harmony which comes) from Christ rule (act as umpire continually) in your hearts [deciding and settling with finality all questions that arise in your minds, in that peaceful state] to which as [members of Christ’s] one body you were also called [to live]. And be thankful (appreciative), [giving praise to God always]." Colossians 3:15 Amplified Bible, Classic Edition I am reminded that it's my choice what I let rule my thoughts, mind and heart. It's my choice where I abide and the atmosphere that I abide in. It's my choice not to step into the current cultural fray unless instructed to by God. If He tells me to speak up, then it's His approval alone that I must seek and I must not fear the disapproval of people. It's my choice to reject the desire to make sure my voice is heard and to submit to His voice alone. It's my choice to abide in His peace and to let His peace abide and to rule in me.