It’s Super Bowl Sunday.
This morning second born daughter, son-in-law, granddaughter and grandson left to go back to South Carolina.
Youngest daughter is now back at her little apartment in cold, snowy, Kansas City, Missouri.
After church, I just needed to come home, take my shoes off, and test the waters of what my life is going to really feel like now…life with Mama in heaven and all of the family that was here for her funeral gone home.
We politely declined the football party invitations.
I came home, wrapped myself in my Nana’s quilt, let some tears fall, and napped in the quiet.
I miss my Mama.
I miss my daughters that now live far away.
I miss the joy of having my oldest granddaughter and only grandson living near
and getting to watch them grow up.
There’s pain in the loving and the missing.
The tears are falling, but my hands are still raised in thanksgiving for the loving,
for this life so rich and full of love.
my continuing gratitude list #881-#912
-the Hubs making breakfast
-God’s faithful provision
-all of us siblings being able to tell Mama goodbye, and so many of her grandchildren, great grandchildren, and even great-great grandchildren
-sharing Mama’s last hours together
-singing together, praying together, laughing together, crying together in Mama’s room
-the Hubs reading the Bible to Mama
-the way she died, so peacefully
-the most wonderful hospice nurse ever
-all of Mama’s caregivers filing in her room to say goodbye
-crying and laughing with my siblings as we prepared her memorial service
-all of my girls and grandbabies being able to come home
-our church and the way they loved me and helped
-so many flowers
-prayers and encouragement from blog friends
-oldest granddaughter-my sunshine girl with the bubbling, brook laugh
-lego-loving, tree-climbing, only grandson
-the way baby granddaughter loves her cousin so
-southern son-in-law raving over my cheese grits
-phone calls from my brother and sister checking on me
-taking out the trash and noticing the beautiful blue hour sky
-the way baby granddaughter hugs her Mama
-the Hubs taking the grandkids shopping for new clothes and picking out such cute ones
-emails from faraway cousins about Mama
-my handyman son-in-law making things for me
-a fun day with the grandbabies
-soft chocolate ice cream
-cupcakes and messy faces
-arcade games and giggles
-passing out doorhangers in southeast Portland for the launch of Hope City
-a much needed nap
won’t you consider counting your blessings with us?