I have always resisted seasons that upset the family apple cart. The storms of life may rage outside, but to me if all was well inside with home and family, then all was well, and life was good. Summers were the best, the girls didn’t have school, and life was good with all the the little chickies home in the nest. About this time every year, the familiar knot in the stomach would come, as the end of the season drew near. I wanted perpetual summer…I didn’t want summer to end, school to start, and the girls to be gone every day. I didn’t want them to be another year older, another grade older. I resisted change. I resisted letting the summer season go. I resisted letting them go.
We have had a wonderful season with all of our children and grandchildren living near and even attending and serving with us at our church. Over the past year, one by one, God has upset the family apple cart. Youngest daughter moved to Missouri. Oldest daughter and son in law are starting their own church after serving with us for ten years. (Thank God for His mercy on this Nana…they are starting a church here in Portland, so they, and baby granddaughter will still be near!) Now middle daughter and son in law, and oldest granddaughter and only grandson are leaving this week for the east coast to pursue more missions training. My stomach has been in perpetual knots, and my eyes filled with tears. I have resisted the change. I have resisted letting go of this season. I have resisted letting them go.
Fall is a beautiful season. If I want to embrace autumn, I have to say goodbye to summer. God has some new, exciting, good things ahead in this new season, not just for my children and grandchildren. He loves me, and even at age 53, He has still has some good stuff up His sleeve for me. Little by little, step by step, day by day, He is helping me to loosen my grip off the old season, and through my teary eyes, He is helping me to look ahead to the future with hope.