Being in the ministry, people often come up to me wanting advice about God's will. I have been known to say that if you really desire to know God's will and be obedient to Him, then He will make His will clear to you and won't let you "accidently" miss His will. He doesn't delight in us being frustrated about which direction to go...He wants to lead us and make His will clear and plain to us.
So, with all of that said, this summer I've been seeking God's will. For the past four years, I have been working during the school year at an elementary school. It has been a good job, with good benefits and retirement. However, each year, I have sought God's will if I should go back to work, because my primary calling is to be a wife and strong support to my husband and family, and to be a part of the pastoral team for our church. Now, if you are a follower of my blog, you know that we are now pastoring not one, but two locations. So, this year, with all of the changes, seemed like a critical year to me to be sure that I was doing what God wanted me to. I begged God for a clear word if I should continue to work at the school. All was quiet. I began to get desperate as the time neared that I would need to notify the school. I began to open my Bible and point to random scriptures...not exactly what I would recommend to others to try...and not particularly effective. I even flipped a coin and asked for a sign! Let's just say, about 50% of the time the answers were different than the time before...go figure!
Here's the frustrating thing...my husband, instead of telling me what to do said, "Whatever you want to do, I'll support you." So, there went my option for someone to blame if I made the wrong decision! When push came to shove, I decided the only reason I was holding on to the job was fear about finances..."what if this? what if that?" My heart wanted to stay home, take better care of my home and family, and plunge in wholeheartedly to what God has called me to be and to do. Finally, based on Matthew 6:24-25, I made my decision. I emailed the principal and told him I was not returning this year and why.
I never did have a moment of knowing with rock solid assurance that I had heard God about this. But, I have to rest in the advice I give to others...If you really are wanting God's will and if you are really wanting to obey Him, then He's not going to let you miss His will.