We sat together at a trendy little restaurant in southeast Portland eating our trendy breakfasts
just before he left to go back to his beautiful southern California home.
My big brother sat across from my husband and I.
When he looks at me it’s Mama’s eyes I see in his face.
He doesn’t speak “Christian-ese”, but the word he uses is right out of John 10:10.
He says, “When I see the life you have I think of the word, “abundance”.
He notices the rich, full life we have, full of blessing, rich in relationships.
In possessions he has so much more than us,
houses, cars, things.
His life is rich in experiences too,
he travels the world, has lived all over the world.
Sometimes I think we’ve sacrificed so much in this ministry life we live.
We have our simple 1400 square foot house and our two basic cars
and not nearly enough put away for the future to offer security in this life.
Our time and life isn’t our own and sometimes it’s hard,
because self wants to be, by its very nature, selfish.
Sometimes I focus on the sacrifice
and it blinds me to the blessing,
the abundance that can’t be measured in things, or bank balances,
or even in crossing off all of the items on my bucket list before I leave this life.
My big brother could see the abundance we have,
in our children and grandchildren,
in our friends and church family,
the abundance of love that surrounds us.
Sometimes I’m blind to it and sometimes I need my big brother to help me to see.