I knew that God had spoken to my heart that 2011 was to be a Year of Preparation.
I knew the theme word He had placed on my heart for 2011 was HOPE.
Both of these things have been confirmed to me repeatedly in various ways.
The one question that remained unanswered was, Year of Preparation….for what?
Until I read Revelation 19:7 in the Amplified Bible
“Let us rejoice and shout for joy…
for the marriage of the Lamb at last has come, and His bride has prepared herself.”
Like an arrow hitting the bulls-eye, I knew this was the preparation God was talking to me about.
He was telling me to prepare my heart for Him.
You see, I have a wandering eye.
I don’t mean to, but SELF collects idols and other gods like metal to a magnet.
You won’t find me bowing down to physical idols, or dabbling in false religion,
but my heart has a tendency to house some pretty big shrines to SELF.
I knew I was treading on thin ice when I asked myself,
“what if God asked you to stop blogging?”
and I knew I would struggle to obey
So, I unplugged for a week, and sought God.
Day One was housecleaning…
let’s just say there was a whole lot of repenting and renouncing going on that day
and a whole, whole lot of forgiveness and grace given.
The conclusion at week’s end was
God loves me wholeheartedly, nothing withheld.
He deserves a bride who loves Him back the same way.
If He said to stop blogging, I could, I would, say yes.
That, my friends, feels like freedom.
But the cherry on top?
He created me to create, to write, to capture beauty with camera,
to teach His Word, to mother, to mentor, to feather my nest…
but for His glory
All for Him…
all my love
all my heart.
my continuing gratitude list #843-#860
-a beautiful, cold, clear day for a late afternoon walk
-the light of Jesus that overcomes darkness
-time with Jesus with real connection
-medical bills only half of what we thought they were
-a $20 bill found in the gutter while on my walk
-an evening with friends
-talking to my grandbabies and son-in-law on the phone, and him not making fun of me for crying because I miss them so
-God’s immeasurable, limitless, surpassing grace
-the kindness and goodness of God’s heart
-our church volunteer appreciation Sunday
-safe trip to K.C. and back home
-God revealing areas that need correcting in my heart, life, priorities
-getting to see Julie Meyer lead in worship and intercession in the prayer room
-God’s wholehearted love